“Living so many ‘different lives,’ it’s been interesting to see how imposter syndrome presents itself in each industry. In the management consulting world self-doubt in your skills creeps in a lot. Despite the rigorous interview process that means you are more than ready for the job. I am sure over time it gets better. But I didn’t stay in the industry long enough to witness my personal evolution with it. When it comes to modeling.. well, naturally as a model you have a lot of insecurities. Whether you’ve just stepped into the industry or are an internationally renowned supermodel, you are very critical of yourself. Industry standards have changed quite a bit, and there has been a marked shift– progress– in the industry focusing on physique to focusing on what the model stands for. That’s been really refreshing to watch.”
You started your journey into homeopathy after experiencing your dog get healed through homeopathy via a natural remedy consisting of pine cones. What is a notable experience of having a human client get healthier from a remedy you prescribed?
“The remedy embodied the energy of the pinecone. I have seen this very same remedy treat a whole person for self loathing, feelings of wanting to hide behind makeup or a mask, and feelings of duality. In classical homeopathy we treat the whole person and let their vital force do the rest of the work!”
“As a child I went to an elementary school where the students were predominantly white, like I could count all of the people of color with 2 hands. I remember thinking, “why does my school get to have a gymnastics class apart from regular gym class, and a drama class when all of the other schools I attended before with predominantly African American students didn’t have that at all.” I didn’t really understand why things were the way they were just because the people lived in different neighborhoods, but I began to understand as I grew older.”
“I struggled with my mental health as a child a lot. It was in regards to my own body. I always felt fat, and believed no one would like me or date me because of it. It was only in my 20s that I let that belief go, and then I discovered anxiety about other issues. But the main struggles in my life were always about my sense of unlovability. I just didn’t feel worthy of connection or love and if I don’t keep on top of that, it comes up in my life today.”
“I think every digital creator with an online community deals with burnout. Burnout not in the usual sense of “overworking,” but in the sense that sharing our life online like we do makes us completely dependent on the internet. “
“I was interested in South Korea before I came to live here so it made me eager to keep learning about Korean language and culture. This curiosity, openness, and desire to culturally assimilate makes certain things easier in adjustment as a foreigner. But it’s not always easy. There are times I feel like I have to have my teacher hat on– needing to politely correct racially/ethnically ignorant comments, looks, or gestures, but I understand that comes with the territory of being and looking different in a country that has been a reflection of homogeneity for decades…
Somewhere down my childhood, I learned that being a “strong” woman was a great honor. However, in my world, the virtues people praised in the “strong woman” were things like suffering and carrying on dutifully in self-sacrifice for her family, or the collective. I grew up being taught that the strong woman was defined as one who put others first, always. Always, always, others before oneself. With this in mind, I did not feel I had access to the full understanding of mental health nor the freedom in evaluating, validating, and responding to my needs, which is what I needed as an individual and woman. For a long time I separated myself from pursuing the whole of mental health– it was more of something I read about in textbooks, heard from friends, maybe saw in a few good relationships that surrounded me.